hmmmmm~~~

hmmmm, dalam hidup ni x sumer org sempurna...
ntahla...bilew x tdo ni,,,
tepk sendiri what world has changed me....
i wonder why human like the word 'hate'...
where aku sendiri pon a human, manyak kali jgak gune perkataan toh....
while actually hating is not a good feeling....
trust me, by hating u x aman...
by hating you cannot sleep...
knowing that there's something exist that bothers u...
why do you need to bother?
while that existence may hurt u?
i never touch people, if people dont touch me,,,
(so, haters!instead of asking why am i doing something to you, it's good for you to ask yourself
what have you done to me)
still, i made up my mind....
the feeling to be hate is better than hating....
i forgave everything~

hmmmm,,,balik kampong!!~

halamak,,,sedap giler berbuke ngan family dekat rumah tetap sendiri...

di tanah tumpah darahku, tmpat aku membesar...

bnagun pukul 1, bangun2 mandi2,siap2,

ikot mak gi pasar....

balik, tengok t.v jap...

tolong mak preapare bahan2,,,

dok la aku sengsorank depan t.v

mengupas bawang, menyiang ikan...

habis2, cuci tangan, masuk bilik,

pasang aircond, tengok t.v..

tau2 tido...

jge balik, bangun,tolong mak masak...

menyibuk2...

habis siap masak, on9 jap...

tau2 dah berbuke,,,,

makan2, burp sikit,,,sembahyang maghrib,,,

habis smbhyang,

si hubby muchok dinasour yang kuat makan

pon talepon...

gadoh2, nanges2, pastu cayunk2,

rindu2, berbaik..

say i love you...

die pon reply i love you damn much...

hang up, mandi2, mayunk isyak, pg terawih

balik, telentang pukan, sembang ngan mak, ayah,

pelok adik, pukol abg (kuat mengusek alan tuh),

Tido!!~~~begitulah rutin ku..

lalalallalaallala

hawa~wow~piau~

hmm, so actually i'm like soooo beginner in diz blogging....
since i'm the one who hardly express my feeling..
still,i 'm just a human being who could always be influenced by the enviroment..
i guess gratitude should be given to both of me sweetest love, baby anish and si kupai fEefEE......
hmmm, me being me, often suck myself into da lala land..(act i dun like da lala word<---fuck)
actually my lala land is more towards what life is all about????
and what about life????i mean world of mine, and world that i am in..
hehe bwat pew plak nak pk dunie orang kn???
bile difikirkan secare teliti,,,,(hah tibe malay plak kan???)hehe
i have to say, NoW i'm livin' o good life..
i have parents yang sangat lah baik,,,,
i never dream of having another parents other than mine now...
they give full education...
i mean dalam akademik,agama,mahupun sikap,
cumenyew i am the one who is not really obedient to my parents
time dulu la....
zaman otak x berkembang, asyik rase diri sendiri jew yang betul...
patut kew????
hantar gi mengaji, sukew mengelat kate jew....
hantar gi skolah asrama, separuh agama lagi,,lompat pagar,,
(padahal pengawas tuh)
mak kate, jgn buat, ohhhh yang tu yang paling syok buat tu..
ayah, pukul....kaki yang pukul tuh jugakla melangkah ke larangan...
so, am i the one at fault???
yes i am...
:(
are my parents are guilty???
Of course They are NOT guilty.....
tapi naseb baek la, ayah and mak never faild, never felt bored thinking of me...
dekat2 nk exam form 5, mak kawal gilew..
stop sume bf2 jap..
pg skolah, mak anta sampai pintu pagar, pg mintak kelas dgn pitu pagar,,,
so bile kuar, terus nampak...
tak la sempat nak lari manew...
padahla x niat pun nak lari...
balik skolah,,,,pintu bilik mulenyew kayu,,
tukar jadi cermin...
ambik!!!~
hahahahahah
lawak.....
tp lepas jew exam....hah
pg la manew nk pg..
syaratnyew bgtau dgn sapew??
balik mesti sebelum pukul 7!!!~
now, what happen to me????
atiqah bt salehuddin yang dulunya
pernah jatuh dari kedivaan nyew
seorang exco pengawas, exco keselamatan asrama puteri,
yang tertangkap panjat pagar!!!~(malu gILEWWWW~)
back in action,,,merangkak naik,,
membetulkan nama ayah yang seumur hidup akan dijunjung..
now,,,it's quiet an achievement..
i am an ex student of uitm shah alam,pre tesl,,
presently,,,a bachelor degree student in upm,serdang...
to be compare with wat my parents invest to me..
IT IS NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~
but trust me dearest parents...
i promise you...
i am no angel,,,
i am no devil...
but i promise you to be the best human( who made mistakes)
i guess dad, u know it...
u are the one who always teach me that no one is perfect....
no matter how naughty i am,,,
i will junjung my dignity....
no matter how i go,,
i will always realize where i came from....


p/s: never blame parents for their children flaws..... :(

The heart of deaf & blind hottie lady~

Why does he make me this way…
Person who loves me would never leaves me in worry,,,
Person who loves me, would never makes me feel anxious,
Person who loves me would never makes me feel betrayed,
Person who loves me would always makes me feel safe..
Person who loves me would always find ways to make me live comfortably..
Person who loves me would never remind and downgraded me of my flaws…

What did I do wrong????
What should I do to make u believe in me?
As if “u never cheated on me” ( and of cause you did)
I forgave u, but when it comes to me….
Then, you know how it hurts…(oh boy, do u really deserve me?)
And asking me ‘please don’t do that again to me,’
U know what, u r so pathetic!!


U were out meeting someone so called your ‘bestfriend’ girlfriend,
Without his acknowledgement, still u call him ‘bestfriend’,
Dude, u got no brain!!!~
Acting like it wasn’t a sin, u should thank god I’m not so mean,,DAMN IT!!~
U denied everything u ever did…
I felt like punching u and that horny bitch right on the face!
I got angry, pull out my emotions to the guy so called ‘love’,
Still!you put the blame on me..
So it means, I don’t have the right to get angry…
So tell me, who am I? clearly,it shows your stupidity..



Honestly saying, I’m a girl wif brain…
If I want money, I could find myself..
If I want property,,halOO!!~u know me and my family..
At the age 20, I got car, houses, territory, business, what else?U NAME it??under my name..
So tell me, after 6 years, what have u gave me???
Not even a penny!!!~~and u r acting like u r the boss of me!!~~
Right from your hair to the tips of the toe,,
Get into reality…u r NOTHING WITHOUT ME!!!~~~

Still,I don’t know, why I still love you…
I don’t know why I still love your soft kiss,
I don’t know why I still love your pampering hugs,
I don’t know why is still believe that your heart belongs to me,
Still believe that you are always be there for me,
Still believe that you are the one I could lean on and cry,

Seriously,
I’m a fucking shiT!!~
I still love you, and will love you till the end of time,
Coz you are my ultimate love, you are always do,
Yet, I have to let you go, before I’ll start hating you…